Week 1 Review--

So I am now down to 162! Granted I only lost 3lbs the first week on the diet ( I clocked in at the first day on it at 165) and was hoping to loose 5lbs. I am still happy at the number. 

But one thing I have learned is I need to let go of the numbers a bit. So I am now ONLY going to weigh myself on Wednesdays. I will have weekly weigh in post. My goal from here on out is really just to loose a pound a week as I feel like that is REALLY realistic. And as much as I would love to blog daily, 

I have also learned that is just not realistic for me. But I will FOR SURE blog weekly.

But being at 162 means I have lost 20POUNDS this year so far! This has been a slow journey for me. But I know I am getting to my goal. I just have to remember how far I have come and NEVER want to go back to where I was. When I started this the first of the year I really thought it would be easier then this, I dont know why because my weight has never been easy to take off. But I know this is the first time I am being serious about it and REAL. I feel better about myself opening about about my weight struggle. For so long I tried to ignore it like it didnt matter. But it does.And going through those teen years struggling with how I was, was REALLY HARD. And I never talked to anyone about it. I pretend like there wasn't a problem. And I felt very alone with myself like I was the only one struggling. And back then I didn't know what to do to help. I didn't have the means to really change when I was eating what my parents made.

I am happy I am making the steps to change and get healthy for really the first time in my life. :)

Carblovers Diet--Food { Day 4}

So the food on this diet is really pretty good. The only thing I haven't LOVED is the chopped salad with garbanzo beans. Maybe they are good in other things. They just weren't my favorite thing. What I have been loving are those things above.
1) Is fish and potatoes with a simple salad. The book says Salmon but I found cat fish on sale and bought instead. I don't know if it makes much of a difference?
2) Is Chicken Pasta Primavera, which was AMAZING. It was pretty simple to make also. It makes 2 servings so I ate the other half 2 days later and it was just as good as the first night. When making it though, it calls for very LITTLE amount of pasta and I was very unsure, but with everything else it for sure filled me up.
3) Is the Banana Shake with a few added berries to add flavor.
This has been my breakfast EVERYDAY for the last 2 weeks and I am still not tired of it. Its so yummy.I started last week with just working on drinking this for breakfast to slowly get back into things. The book calls for honey to add sweetness. But instead of honey I add 1/4th cup of orange juice which helps give a bit more flavor.

For lunch I have been mostly having the Express lunch.
Which is just Rye Crisp, Cheese, Hard Boiled Egg, Suppose to be apple but I have head a peach instead. Pretty Boring but easy to pack for lunch for work and I like easy.

I am excited for next week to jump into more recipe options from the book though. I haven't even really looked other then a quick glance because I just want to concentrate on this week of what I can eat.

I am really excited to share the weight loss with you. (I weigh myself everyday, I know I shouldn't but it really keeps me going and on top of things. I really enjoy it too!) But I wont share with you what I have lost this week till after my whole 7 days are done.
So for sure check in Monday and see how I did!

Carblovers Diet {day 3}

So things are mostly going good. The diet is well planned out. The foods are actually good, for what I have made. To be honest though I can't say I am doing perfect. But I know I am doing better about snacking. But not perfect. But I am trying to be okay with that. And to know I am never going to to 100% perfect at it. And if I had a brownie its okay.
Because I am doing better with each step I make.

I do have to say the 7day kick start for me isn't enough to eat. And I have tried to just have one snack a day. But seriously I am REALLY hungry. So I have been having another snack. But healthy. The book recommends just one and to try and hold it off till after lunch. But with my new work schedule and how the girls are up. I drink my morning shake around 8am and then don't have my lunch until 1:30 or 2. And around 11 I am really hungry so I have been having a yogurt or fruit. Which helps ALOT. And then I also have a snack between lunch and dinner.

I think I will be fine the next day and half. But come fri night and the weekend that's where I will have to really pull it together and think about the choices I am making.

I am feeling good about this though!

Weight loss goals--

So these are my "rewards" for when I reach my different goal weights. I am pretty sure I will get to mark off 20lbs by the end of the week as I am at 164 right now. Which means I am almost half way to my GOAL weight of 132! Honestly I cant tell you when I was ever at 132. I have struggled with my weight all my life pretty much. Which is frustrating to me because I know at some point in the picture it wasn't something that I should have been worrying about because my parents should have been looking out for me. But they weren't. But I know that it has taught me how important it is, when I become a parent, to involve my own kids in lots of healthy active sports and teach them about healthy food. I have never really played sports, I say now because I am not interested. But as a young kid we didn't have the money for "extras" and my mom wasn't one to push us much to be active and play hard. So therefore I never played sports. Well I did for like one year in 1st grade. I am trying to be more active and work out. But its hard when its NEVER been a normal part of my life. I am hoping with my new job, nannying twin 6 month old, we will take a lot of walks and I can get more active during the day. I know working out will make the weight come off fast, and keep my mind on the goal. So I will get to worked into my daily life. But this week I am consternating on keeping track of the food I am eating. So here's to getting to my GOAL!

Something new---

I am again starting something new.I like changing things up and keeping things different, as I get bored pretty easily.So about a month ago I was reading Health magazine and they had this article about this new diet book coming out the first of Aug. Called the Carb Lovers Diet. I love carbs so I was intrigued to know more about it. I did a bit of research on it and I had a gift card to a book store so I thought it looked pretty good so I ended up buying it.
After I bought it I also did some research online about it. And I found this great blog of a girl that was one of the testers for the book. And she was in the middle of the diet and was loosing a good amount of weight on it and was really like it. So I felt even better about it. One of the recipes in the book is a banana smoothie for breakfast. And this past week I have cut out a lot of junk in my diet and started drinking one of the smoothies in the morning.And this week alone I dropped 2lbs. Which is very exciting.

So the first 7days of the diet is a lot more strict. Which is okay. After doing the VERY strict phase 1 south beach diet for 2 weeks I feel like I can do ANYTHING for 7days.And even with the "strict" part you can still eat a lot of yummy things. So I am not worried.They say you can can loose anywhere from 3-6lbs in the first week. So I am hoping to loose 5lbs and get in the 150s. I am currently 164.

Here I am again a few weeks later in the same size 10 jeans. Its amazing even what 2lbs can do. Because even thought these jeans still don't fit nor look good on me, I can now at least button them up :)
I still feel embarrassed to show what I look like in these. But I KNOW I don't want to look like this anymore and me opening up about how I really feel and how I look, I know is going to help me loose these next 34lbs. I know I am loved by my friends and family. But I don't want to be the fat girl or chubby girl anymore. I am NOT doing this for everyone else. I am doing this for ME. Because I know I deserve to feel good about myself for once in my life.


My stomach is probably my worse area. And the thing I HATE the most about my body. So I am hoping as these next 34lbs leave this area will get A LOT smaller :)

I am gonna try to blog everyday this next week through the 7days of the first part of the diet to keep me on track even more.

Stay turned tomorrow to hear about my goals....

Getting Back on Track---

So here I am again, trying to get myself back on track with my weight loss.

I am 2 lbs away from the 20lbs lost, and really I should be proud that I have taken that much off and kept it off all year. I have been up and down a bit the past month.
But I am ready to kick back into goal mode.
My birthday is in 12 WEEKS and my goal right now is to loose 10lbs by then. But to also fit in these jeans that I love but don't fit me quite yet by my birthday or to even be too big. I bought them at a garage sale for $2 knowing they would be great goal jeans.

So I have to say this makes me a bit embarrassed, not because I feel horriable about myself, but because I am not even sure how I got to this point and have been like this for so long.

But I do feel a lot better about myself then I did in the beginning of the year so I know its all a process and I am on the right track.
So I think I am going to do weekly weigh ins till my birthday, and photos of me in these jeans.
So here's where I am starting at!


Hopefully come Oct 15th I look WAY better in these jeans!
I can do it!